The death of my soul and the birth of my heart

I can feel you so close, but I know pain too well. I lay on my cruxification, the nails of my sorrow droven through my hands. I want to die, and be with you, but I can't really go
with you. I want to drive you through my heart and end the pain, I want to drive you through my heart and feel the sweet embrace of death. I want to be born again, I want to hold you in my arms, I want to love you forever, but I can't. I have the will, I have the power, but I don't want to die. My desire stops me, my inability is barricade between us. I want to drive that stake through my heart, I want to scream your name, but all you hear is "I love you." My words are choked, and all they do is laugh. I want to kill them, I want to flay them alive, but all I can do is lay on my crucifixtion, and never die with you. I want to drive the stake through, I want to be with you, I want to love you, but I can't pick up the stake, I can't pick you up in my arms and die end the pain. All I want to do is be with you.